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<p align=center><br><b>CHRISTINE JOY FLAVIER HERRERA</b><br>Aquarius. <i>020793.</i> 13 Years Old.<br>Filipina. <u>Single</u> & waiting.<br>John Muir Middle School.<br>8th grader. <b>ASB Treasurer.</b> Softball Player.<br>i have <i>big dreams.</i><br><u>Shopping</u>, <b>Sports</b> & <i>Music</i> are my love. <br>Family & Best Friends comes first.<br>I dislike Insects, <u>Cake</u> & <b>Drama</b>.</align>

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<br><a href="http://www.myspace.com/hi____mynameisjulie">julie</a><br><a href="http://www.myspace.com/caaarissaaaa">carissa</a>

"friendship takes care to build and seconds to break."

A bestfriend is a sister destiny forgot to give u

"friends are like quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly."
"You realize that you aren't friends with someone anymore when the silences between you are awkward."

"Friends are the siblings you never had."

The best thing about true friendship is that you can grow seperately without growing apart.

Only enemies speak the truth; friends & lovers lie endlessly, caught in the web of duty - Stephen King

Everyone hears what you say, friends listen to what you say, and best friends listen to what you dont.
True friendship is simply two hearts working together to carry one load

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Sometimes you need a second chance, because maybe the first time you just werent ready for what was about to happen

There's only so much,
a girl can take before,
she completely gives up

Sometimes the best thing to do is
just to forget what you had & remember what you deserve

The only goodbyes that hurt
are the ones you know
that will never say hello
{ again }

Letting go isn't giving up
its excepting some things
arent meant to be

The worst feeling in the world
is wondering how things
could have been
should have been
and would have been

I've tried to hate you, blame you for all this, but no matter what I do, in the end I know that I brought all this hurt upon myself, and it hurts me more knowing that I hurt you along the way too.

I keep promising myself that I'd get rid of anything & everything that reminds me of you, but then I realize that even if I did, there's nothing I can do to erase our memories & the feelings that I still have for you

The worst feeling in the world is to relaise that he meant everything to you and you meant nothing to him
иσтнιи ιѕ мσяє [ραιиfυℓ] тнєи яєαℓιzιи нє мєαиs [єνяутнιи] тσ υ и υ мєαи [иσтнιи] to нιm
I need to know how you feel, I miss you.

Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't
but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do.

There is no past tense in love, you either love them, or you never did

*You have to feel pain to feel happiness...
The greater the pain, the greater the happiness.*

Perfection is when you acknowledge each flaw and each attribute. and accept them for what they are.

"Nothing Is As It Seems"

It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.

-J. K. Rowling

"The Heaviest thing you could ever carry is a grudge."

True strength is being able to hold it all together,
when everyone else is expecting you to fall apart.

Understand then forgive.
learn then forget and accept.

Our greatest glory consists not in never falling, but in rising everytime we fall.

Silence is a lot like violence... it is not the answer

Nothing is predestined: The obstacles of your past can become the gateways that lead to new beginnings

Bravery is the capacity to perform properly even when scared half to death.

Regret is a waste of time because you cant change something that is gone and past.

Music inspires life and life inspires music - Layne Beachley

Never underestimate the possibilities of the impossible and the possible for anything can happen.

" the imposition of stigma is the most common form of violence used in democratic societies "

" it's not what the world holds for you, it's what you bring to it "

"Follow your dreams to the fullest, because the obstacles along the way will strengthen your faith."

If we never experienced the hard times in life, there would never be any good times to look forward to.

"God would not have given it to you if you could not handle it."

" courage is doing what your afraid to"

I feel like the world is moving twice as fast as my life and i can't keep up.

Love all, trust a few. Do wrong to none.
-- William Shakespeare

"be a leader, NOT a follower, they get nowhere in life"

The meaning of things lies not in the things themself, but in our attitued towards them.

"Dont let others lives bring you down
help them and bring it up."

Just cause god made the world dosent mean he has the answers for the world

"worry is a woman's way of fussing over things she cannot control."

"I do my hair, striving for perfection. But I just look in the mirror, and hate the reflection."

"One makes mistakes; that is life. But it is never a mistake to have loved."

"In pain, there is blessing."
--Luis Hernandez

Tears are words, your heart cannot speak

The best way to defeat the best is sometimes to defeat it with the simpliest way

The greatest flaw of every human is the unreliability of their heart.

The only dependable thing about the future is uncertainty.

Life invented death and God perfected it's individual consequence.

If you really want peace and rapture in your life then your heart should be vacate from worldly desires.

Nobody knows the feelings showed, but beginnings create fears, and endings create tears.

Humans worst fear isn't the fear of death,
But that death will leave them with nothing, ONLY to be forgotten over time.

Sure friendship is strong but It doesnt last 4ever

Words I wish I've said I left unsaid,
and now our friendship has come to an end.

Giving up doesnt mean your weak, it means your strong enough to let go.

It hurts to see a best friend hurt.
it hurts even more when your the one that hurt her.

"If you judge people, you have no time to love them."- Mother Teresa

True friendship is hard to find

"In reality, you are truly blessed to have one true friend to the back-bone,"

"A true friend understands you, even when you're not talking,"

"Friends come and go,"

"Sometimes your best friend can be your worst enemy"

It's amazing when two strangers become best friends
But it's sad when two best friends become strangers

No pain hurts as much as the pain which your best friend cause you by braking your trust.

It takes a lot to trust, but it takes even more to be trusted.

Best friends isnt a lable its a promise....

'In The End, We Will Remember Not The Words Of Our Enemies, But The Silence Of Our Friends.'

There comes a time when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will. In the end you will learn who is Fake, who is True, and who would risk it all for you.

Fake is the New trend.
I guess everyone's in

Giving up doesnt mean your weak, it means your strong enough to let go.

"The worst kind of a friendship is a lost one."

So after 3 years of being "best friends" i guess i dont even deserve 2 min. of your time to know what i did that made you hate me so much.

Sometimes i wonder if eaither of us really likes the other, or if we stay in touch just because we want to believe that "best friends forever" really does exist

....& you wake up one day and realize that you weren't a good enough friend to any of them to make them want to keep you around.......

"Good friends take away the knife but best friends cut with you."

How do you know you've found your best friend?
When you are ready to talk to them about anything, even though they know everything about you already.

When you lose what is most precious, when you don't know what to do, when you don't know what to say - but you still know how you feel.

"There are no such things as strangers, only friends we
haven't met yet." – Anonymous

"theres only one thing you left me to is saying good bye to a past I dont need anymore but soon you will realize what you lost..a friend"

people who are close to you are not necessarily the ones who will always be close to your heart

Never say you've lost a friend. because
if a friendship is capable of ending,
it never existed

Tell me its going to be okay, even if you have to lie to do it.

"they may forget what you said but they will never forget how you made them feel..."

Friendship is simply a form of relationship started with common nature-

&& now i can see that everything i did to keep us together, were all the things that tore us apart...

People don't build walls to keep people out, they build them to see who cares enough to tear them down.

No matter how hard I try, You’re never satisfied. This is not a home, I’m better off alone
- Three Days Grace

The best type of miracle a friendship can make is being able to grow up without growing apart.

I feel like the whole world walked out on me, and instead of crying with me, you left me behind!

"Don't ever call yourself a good friend if you don't forgive those who have hurt you."

The only people you need in your life are the ones who need you in theirs.

Don't let a good friendship go, because of one incident

No wonder friendship necklaces are broken hearts.

The process of making enemies is nature’s way of distilling the people who do not understand you from the people who wish to understand you.

I hate how last week we were best friends no matter what ,
and now since whatever happened,
our friendship means nothing.

Strength is no more than how well you hide your pain."

God protect me from my friends, i can handle my enemies

Now that you are gone, it feels so wrong

"Although our friendship is physically at end...One memory will live forever; which was the day that you told me "I was your first real; true friend"

I guess in the end people become the people
- -> that they promised they'd never be..

We were supposed to be friends forever.
Forever must not have been that long.

You know your best friends when you havent talked in two days and its been "to long"

"The best way to destroy an enemy is to make him a friend."

The greater the trust, the greater the betrayal...

Dont worry about people from ur past, theres a reason they didnt make it to your future

Best friends are unsepertable until a girl comes in and ruins it all.

One little fight can change everything but i want you to know i will never turn my back on you because you mean that much to me and i dont care what they say because your one of my good friends and thats how we are

Sometimes its the friends that we hold so close, that are the ones holding the knife that stabs your back.

Saying sorry doesnt make it better it might help a little bit but sorry cant take away the pain you have caused

Sometimes we keep pushing people away knowing that they’ll be back but be careful on whom you push away, ‘cause one day you’ll realize how much they mean to you only to find out you can never pull them back into your life again.

I do not need a certain number of friends, just a number of friends that I can be certain of

"now you told me that you dont wanna be friends anymore...But I couldn't help but notice the tears in your eyes when you told me that"

I give in so you won't have to.

Communication may be hard but not communicating can feel a lot worse.\\

I don't even know what to say anymore
The more I talk the more you dont know

Love isn't finding a perfect person. It's seeing an imperfect person perfectly."

The first duty of love is to listen."
~ Paul Johann Tillich (1886-1965)

"If you live to be 100, I want to live to be 100 minus 1, so I will never have to live a day with out you!"-Winnie the Pooh

"You know it's love when you can't fall asleep, because reality is better than any dream."

"Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind; and therefore is wing'd Cupid painted blind."
-William Shakespeare

Some say it's holding on that makes you strong; sometimes it's letting go."

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it's what you are expected to give - which is everything.

~ Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It's means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections ~

We come to love not by finding a perfect person but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

The best feelings are those
that have no words to describe them

&& sometimes someone can mean so much to me,
that not even the truth can change my mind

You dont realize how strong a person is. . .
until you see them at their weakest moment.

"A lot of people think the purpose of school
is for students to learn how to function as a community.
How to get along. Assimilate. It's not.
You are here to discover and develop your strength
as an individual. That strength comes from within you
from facing your greatest fears and from not
backing down when no one listens or cares or agrees.
When I look at this crowd tonight, I see a
room full of people who have chosen to harness their
power as individuals. And regardless of the
outcome of this fight -- I thank you, all of you." - dawson's creek

My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter any more, because I know that what we had was real. & if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy & remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other & growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul & makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts & brings peace to our minds, & that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you. Noah - [The Notebook

A woman knows when you
look into her eyes & see someone else
- the notebook

Life is an opportunity ` benefit from it.
Life is a beauty * admire it.
Life is a dream , realize it.
Life is a challenge * meet it.
Life is a duty ` complete it.
Life is a game * play it.
Life is a promise , fulfill it.
Life is sorrow * overcome it.
Life is a song ` sing it.
Life is a struggle * accept it.
Life is a tragedy , confront it.
Life is an adventure * dare it.
Life is luck ` make it.
Life is life * fight for it.

I`m friends with a lot of guys. I have girlfriends too,
but for the most part, I`m friends with guys because
girls are kind of backstabbing. -- Paris Hilton

I love waking up in the morning
not knowing whats going to happen
or who I'm going to meet. -Titanic

I think our love can do anything we want it to
-The Notebook

Welcome to a world where being
you.. is just never enough

When you say I'm beautiful I say "yeah right," but what I'm really saying is "do you really think so?" When you say good job I say "thanks" but what I'm really saying is "I love that you notice." When you say we'll be together forever I say "I hope so" but what I'm really saying is "I hope forever never ends." When you say I love you I say "I love you too" but what I'm really saying is "never stop saying that." When you say that I dont care I say "yes I do" but what I'm really saying is "I care for you more than you'll ever know."

She needs time alone. You know?
Time to think -- to pull herself together.

It's not the fact that I miss being your girlfrind
It's the fact that I miss being in your life.

I don`t forgive people because I`m weak
I forgive them because I`m strong enough
to understand people make mistakes .

It hurts the most when you never gave up one him, never stopped thinking of him & never stopped loving him no matter what but he gave up on you, stopped thinking of you & loves someone else.

when girls are not arguing,
they are thinking deeply.
when girls look 'staringly' at you,
they are wonderin how long you`ll be around.
when girls answer 'im fine'
after a few seconds, they are not at all fine.
when girls stare at you,
they are wondering whether you are lying or not.
when girls lay their head on your chest
they are wishing for u to be theirs forever.
when girls call you everyday,
they want your attention.
when girls want to see you everyday,
they want to be loved
and pampered by you.
when girls text you,
they miss you and want you to reply at least once.
when girls say ' i love you ' ,
they mean it.
when girls say they cant live without you,
they have made up their mind that
you are their future.
when girls say they miss you..
no one in this world can miss
you more then they do

Silence is the most powerful cry...

You have no idea how much you`ve changed me
You gave me reasons to smile, thoughts to think,
kisses to dream about, but most of all
you gave me memories to never forget
All your words haunting me,
Tearing my world apart,
Beginning from the start.
Trying to please you in every way,
End up crying, day after day.
But here`s the real me,
As you can see.

you were given this life
cause you were strong enough to live it

"sometimes the most real things in life
are the things that can't be seen."

you may have chemistry with her
but you have history with me ;)

& i`m begging for you to love me like you used to.

just because i`m not speaking to you,
it doesn`t mean i don`t miss you

don’t risk anything you aren’t willing to lose <3

Sometimes people are strongest
when they have no one to hold them up.

if you don`t understand my silence,
then you don`t deserve my words.

Don't promise me anything.
Prove it.

God will never put you in situations
that you cant handle; so dont stress =)

you're letting her think you're emotionally
available. you're letting her think she has a
chance. & there is nothing worse in the
world then thinking you have a chance,
when you really dont

want a guy who figures me out and can tell me anything, I want a guy who will come to me in the middle of the night just to talk and tell me he misses me, I want a guy who sees through everything and only sees him and me, and all that matters is that we're together.

God didn't promise days without pain,
laughter without sorrow, or sun w/ out
rain. but He did promise strength for the
day, comfort for the tears, and [light]
for the way :]<3

Just promise me one thing.
You wont turn out to be like all the rest.

He looked up at her and smiled
and for a second,
something in the world was right.

take it from someone who knows
you're amazing. you always have been

Sometimes the two people that are
meant to be are the last to realize it

if there's just one piece of advice i can give you, it's this - when there's something you really want, fight for it, don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems. and when you've lost hope, ask yourself if 10 years from now, you're gonna wish you gave it just one more shot. because the best things in life, they don't come free <3
- grey's anatomy -

you make me so nervous when i see you
& i just lose my grip and say the
stupidest things, but im not really that stupid

sometimes you just gotta tell a guy how
you feel, even if he doesnt accept, he'll know
you'll be W A I T I N G

Sometimes the hardest advice to follow .. is your own

heros get remembered, but legends never die

You have always been the habit she could never
break. the habit she never really wants to break.

the best way to gain acceptance
is to accept yourself first

God has planned your whole life out, so
never think there isnt a purpose for you
here on earth, cause there is

Have you have had that empty feeling inside
of you like no one cares or loves you back ;;
as if you cried ; no one would be there to
wipe away all of your tears?

You tell me that you're sorry,
didn't think I'd turn around & say
that it's too late to apologize.

i`m so tired of pretending everything`s okay
my tears are starting to show
& my smile is slowly fading away

Ever notice the only boys we complain about
Are the ones we care the most about?

when the right person comes along ..
sometimes you don`t know until its too late

if a simple song makes you want to
break down and cry, you know you're losing it.

and he made up his mind not to loose her.
he would do anything to keep her. <3
++ The Notebook

Whoever said "What you don't know can't hurt you" was a complete & total moron. Cause..for most people I know, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world.
++ * Grey`s Anatomy

you said " i love you " and i said it too,
the only difference is i didnt lie to you.

The strongest people love,
even when their heart is broken.

knowing is better than wondering,
waking is better than sleeping,
and even the biggest failure,
beats the hell out of never trying
`+ greys_anatomy <3

If you judge people, you have no time to love them.

Love: Two minds without a single thought.

Love is the only force capable of transforming an enemy into friend.

Without love, benevolence becomes egotism

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get - only with what you are expecting to give - which is everything.

God blesses those whose hearts are pure, for they will see God. - Bible - Matthew 5:8

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Nobody takes a picture of something they want to forget.
++ One Hour Photo

It's hard when people ask
"Whats Wrong?".. and you don't
have an answer because
the truth is you don't know

When you look at me, it's like you're secretly trying to tell me not to give up.

love is alway’s present but it’s just one was being loved too much &the other was being loved too little

keep in mind that you shouldn’t let go when you feel it hurting too much &don't ever give up when love isn’t enough &don’t move on when things aren’t the same as before . if ever you feel like letting go just think about why you held on for so long .

All I want is for you to be happy
Nothing else just for you to be alright
I hope you can see
That I still want you in my life

But I have to say
We were the best of friends once
I wish there was a way
To bring that back again

You were always there for me
Always cared and stood by me
I thought everything was great
I guess not because it's the opposite to you instead

You were the best thing that happened to me
You brightened up my life
Washed away my fears
And even helped me get away from the knife

You were everything to me
Everything and even more
You mean so much to me
I try so hard to show it

I guess it didn't work
Or you just hate me
Because everything is worse
I don't know what to believe

All I want is for us to be okay
Because you were important to me
All I have left to say
Is that I will always love you, believe me

If you think I have always been pretending
Why would I still be here asking you
To bring back our friendship
I miss you and I hope you're happy with what you do

When I'm near you, were always far apart
i see you and its hard to speak to you
in my head theres a million things i want you to know
but when i talk the words fall right down from my mouth
i should've been sober then i could've avoid the mistake i made so we could stay as what we always were and what we've always been
but
now Ive ruined something so perfectly good
and theres nothing to prove to take it back
you're so gone and your so good at it
living so happily without a care
now my face is in the dirt
although its what i deserve
the mistake i made ripped our friendship away
little by little, it can never be put together
its not even worth a try
my drunken words have put me out your life forever.
but our memories will stay chained down somewhere in my heart
you, most importantly will always be the person
Ive known always in my heart, pinned down on the center on top of everything i ever loved.

Can't you see what is happening?
We're starting to drift apart,
It's something I couldn't handle,
It would pain coat my heart.

And I couldn't hold on,
I wouldn't know what to do,
I'd be totally lost,
If I couldn't talk to you.

You're the air in my lungs,
The spirit that keeps me alive,
I walk this earth for you,
Just to survive.

I wake up in the morning,
Praying that you're ok,
And hope that you know,
I will never run away.

I'm here for you,
Just like you are for me,
And I hope that,
Friends we'll forever be.

And when it's too hard,
Speak and let me hear,
I'll hold you close,
And wipe away each tear.

I'll help you,
Let go of the past,
And I won't force you,
Because some things may last.

But please my angel,
Open your eyes to see,
That I'm still here,
And I'll set your sorrows free.

Because I can't lose you,
It can't keep going on,
Angel I need you,
I'd die if you were gone.

feelings so stirred,
messed everything up.
everything was fine,
communication went corrupt.
we were the best of anything,
until this time came.
now it seems like
thing's would never be the same.
i don't know what happened,
everything's such a blur.
you seemed to have vanished
like nothing even occured.
our friendship meant so much to me,
i wish i knew what to say.
we've been through so much
i hope things get better from day to day.

I give in so you won't have to. I'll start to talk first like I always do, because I care so much. I don't wanna say I'm sorry yet, until I know what happened. I hate that two weeks ago we were best friends forever, but now whatever it was that happened, it seems like our friendship doesn't even matter. I didn't wanna jump into conclusions and just assume were not friends, but two weeks of ignoring each other, I can't help it, but to think it's over between me, you and Carissa. Everything seemed fine with me and Carissa, too, until that one day when she didn't even say a word to me while she was with you to go to your locker. I didn't know what it was, it could've been because you told her something or what, but I just can't seem to figure it out. You have no idea how lost I am without you two, but luckily Salina and Leslie's been helping me look on the bright side. Two weeks ago, I knew you had some problems, perhaps it was because of family, but you never gave me the details to it. Then next day, I had problems, and it went on for days. Our moods didn't seem to match up. I talked less on the days you were sad because I knew you needed to just think. And you did that same on the days I was sad. Now it led to this, us officially not talking. It hurted me to see you sad and it hurted even more when you didn't tell me about it, because I wanted so badly to be the one who will cheer you up. It came to the point where it was hard for me to speak to you. I started to lose trust in everyone I knew. I knew from the beginning of this Trio thing with Carissa, was gonna eventually cause something negative between me and you. And it did, because you and Carissa have more time to spend with each other, I felt like I was missing out on alot. I sometimes heard you guys talking about something and I had no idea what it was. You seemed closer to Carissa than you were with me, and Carissa seemed closer to you. I can't afford to lose two of the most important people in my life, but if I do, I can't really do anything about it, but to let you know how I feel. This is not even half of what I wanted to say, I want us three, to have a conversation about this..phone, in person or aim.

just to say, i don't know what happened between us either. one day, we're laughing and talking about the usual things over the phone. and then the horrid week came when our moods seemed to have switched off day to day encounting. it seemed to be getting better, until the following week came. you seemed to have been in that 'mood' where you didn't want to talk at all. so i still stood by you. all we seemed to have said to each other was hi and bye. and i guess it did lead to this. carissa even said that she doesn't know what happened in this situation. this trio thing might've worked, if we just spent more time talking to each other. but i guess since carissa seemed to have talked about more stuff that i knew about, she told me about it. it seems like i may be getting in the way of you and her becoming best friends again, and i don't want that. our friendship means so much to me, and i don't want anything to get worse. i don't know why that one day she didn't talk to you. during that lunch day, when you said that you weren't going to the lockers. i knew that i had to just leave you with salina and leslie, because they seemed to be the only ones who were able to cheer you up.

fights, tears, and confusion may be what we have to go through to solve this. but whatever it takes, i want this to be solved. yes, we do need to talk; the three of us. because to really say, our friendship means so much more than any other. and i don't want any of that to change..

Honestly, I think there's more to just our moods not matching up. You felt something else too, that maybe you never told me. I heard someone say you felt like I was replacing you with Salina and Leslie? And I know, I feel the same way, I <b>sometimes</b> feel like I'm getting replaced by Carissa, Linda, Onel? And it's not like I'm trying to stop you from having other best friends. But Julie, from the day I gave you the title as my best friend, I told you from time to time over and over again, NO ONE can ever replace you and I mean that. You're one of my best friends you know, you're the ONLY JULIE in my life. And Salina is the only Salina in my life, Leslie's the only Leslie in my life and Carissa's the only Carissa in my life. You all have different roles and meaning to me. No one else is as good of a friend as you are and I never want to lose you. Now that this thing happened, even Carissa seems to hate me. As our friendship with Carissa developed, the extra time you got to spend with her seemed like the time when you guys tell each other secrets. You guys obviously didn't told me about it, but I didn't bother to ask because I didn't want to start a fight, but I guess it did anyways. As I'm typing this, my sister is talking to me about Friends and Friendships. She said she don't trust any of my friends at this point. She wanted me to find people who won't disappoint me. Do you know how much it hurted to hear her actually say, "I don't even trust Carissa or Julie to be your friends." But I fought back, I held the tears back as I told her, "You don't even know them, don't say that." The day when I didn't want to go to my locker, that was because I didn't want to have to walk with you again with complete silence. It hurted because I knew something changed. I think maybe me and Carissa just don't work out at all, because no matter how hard I try to be as good as a best friend to her, it just never seems enough. I never seem to be good enough for her to like me and call me her real best friend. I don't want to write another long comment, I just want us to talk as soon as possible because if we let this go on it might get to the point where it's impossible to solve and I don't want that.

Every now and then,

Your lips touch mine;

Again and again,

As we begin to entwine.

Those joys were temporary,

You left forgetting me.

The taste of those times are still alive,

But nowadays you don't know me.

Even when we held hands,

Your gentle touch;

Along with your laughs,

Always kept me warm from deep within.

Now during these cold nights,

I miss that gentle touch.

You presented me sorrow for the deepest love,

All I will say is thank you very much.

As minutes turn into hours

And Hours turn to days

My heart keeps on beating

For the one I truly love

Yet he is not here anymore,

To see a perplexed heart.

The heart that gave him much love,

Now how it is ripped apart.

<p><b>RJ;</b> This guy have put me through heck of a lot, but I got through them. I guess, all of that helped me become a stronger person. I really don't know what else to say, but no matter how much pain or hurt he had put me through or will put me through, I will <b>NEVER</B> do the same to him.

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